So I’ve been really wanting to do something artsy and fun, but I’m at a complete loss. I’m really into flowers lately; I just want to sketch or paint flowers on everything, it seems, but I can’t seem to create anything I actually like.
Tell me that is not one of the most beautiful dried floral bouquets you have ever seen?! I’ve been so into beautiful, fantastic colors lately; colorful and ethereal, and I really, really want to create something with these colors, and I sort of have an image in mind, but I can’t translate it to space.
This sucks haha. I don’t know if it’s an anxiety thing – because I do have this deep rooted fear of destroying everything I touch, and it’s what keeps me from really creating or making what I want to make. Time is also another factor, because there are aspects of my life out of my control, and it cuts into that. Probably because I also overwhelm myself.
Maybe I should just try to find a way to ease myself back into art properly instead of just doing these random creative bursts. I have an idea of sort of doing my own ‘art study’ and drawing individual pieces for what I’d like to create next, and then finally merging them and drawing or painting them together. I don’t know. It’s just an idea to maybe help ease the anxiety that I’m going to destroy everything I touch.
I just need to find a millionaire so I can devote all my time to my hobbies. Or find a way to create and use it as a means of self sustenance.
I can dream, can’t I?
Galactic Bubbles 